Scared

I hate having nightmares. When I wake up I feel lost or hurt. I'm so scared for what is it come. Yet I'm so happy at the same time, because I know that it will bring so much love into the world. I really wish that I could be the one being able to take care of her, and to be sealed to her. It hurts a lot somedays. I hope God gives me the strength to do this, and I know he will, I'm just loosing my baby girl. Everything I do is for her, and it will never change. I'm not ready to place her, but I never will be. I know that Jared and Rachel have an incredible family. I know she will love them as much as I already do.

Thoughts...

I have to say I'm very happy! Life is perfect! I'm so happy I'm where I am right now. It stinks that I'm going to have go through some painful things, but I think that it's all worth it. The person that I have changed in to is the exact person I've always wanted to be! Thanks for all of you who, who have helped me along the way! Love you all!

Two of My Sisters

           (ps these are pics from last year and my hair is no longer this dark so I look a little bit different lol)

Cherali - It's amazing how much her and I are alike, but yet look so different (but kind of look the same). This is an old pic so my hair is no longer this dark. I love to be around her. She gives such great advice, and I know that I can count on her no matter what! Lately I've been staying with her a ton, and I pretty much love it! She has helped me through so much in my life! I really have no idea where I would be without her. I know that I can always count on her to be there for me. Love her to death!

Tracea - I love her to death!! We are the only two people that have green eyes in our family, because we're awesome! I know no matter what she'll always be there for me. She always knows how to have a good time, and make me laugh. She is amazing person. I love to be around her whenever I get the chance to. Even though it's not too often I enjoy all of the time I get to spend with her. Love her mucho!!!