My Complaint For The Day

I think that it's funny that I tell him about my doctor's appointment and how I have to change the appointment date, and he can't even text me back saying that's fine. I don't know. Am I expecting too much? I really don't think that it would take that much to say that's fine. My complaint for the day. But I'm actually pretty happy right now! Not going to let stupid thoughts bring me down. My brother is on leave and coming home next week!!! I'm so excited! Can't wait to see him :]

Happy Day :)

So I got my quad scriptures finally!! So excited and happy, oh and I got my name on them too "Justina Lynn"! They're so pretty!!! haha I'm in a great mood today! Went to go get my blood drawn... Wasn't bad though! I love when even though things aren't perfect I can make it better. Being happy is amazing more people should try it! I decided what I want my baby girl's name to be (since Jared and Rachel are letting me pick it out cause their awesome chaya!) I've decided on MayLynn Chaylea (pronounced like Shaley). I love it!! She's going to be perfect in every single way :)

My Blessings

I think everyday has a blessing in it. You just have to open your eyes to everything that you have. MayLynn is a blessing in so many ways. She has changed my life so much. I'm not saying that other people won't hurt when I place her for adoption, but I know that it is going to hurt me the most. No one, besides for a birthmom, will truly know what I'm going through and will go through. I do believe though other people will be deeply sad too. She is such a blessing in my life, and will continue to be. She opened my eyes to everything. I have and amazing family that will be there for me, all my support girls (birthmoms) who I love to death!!! And also Heavenly Father. It's taken me a while to have a testimony, and it stinks that I'm having to go through this. It makes me a better person in every single way. She is everything to me! She'll have an amazing family! Who I love so much! Jared and Rachel are so loving and fun I couldn't imagine anyone else who would be more perfect. I know I'm going to feel empty, but I know that seeing her happiness and all the love that will surround her will eventually replace that feeling. I have an a amazing family who support me, and I'm so glad that I do. I have no idea where I would be without them!